Mentally, I'm feeling better. Which is good. I feel like I'm in a much more positive space and trying to remain in the frame of mind that everything is going to work out. I really want it to be next week so that we will know more after Marc's appointment.
Thank you for all your sweet comments and emails yesterday. They mean the world to me that I have the support out there. I'm so thankful for all of you.
Eating wise I'm doing awful but then again overeating is how I handle stress. I really need to come up with some coping skills/activities to get me out of the overeating arena. I was disappointed to see that one of my shirts I wanted to wear to work this morning was too tight, it is that TOM so I know that has to do with it but not all of it. I may skip in the Back to Basics Challenge weigh in this week, if I see that the scale has gone up more I don't know if I can handle that and do well. I think I can skip one week with no weigh in and still be in the running. Anyone know for sure?
This weekend should be a good one. We are renting a pontoon boat with my parents, brother and his wife on Saturday. It will be a fun day on the lake and I'm really looking forward to a relaxing day on the boat with lots of sun, good company and hopefully some reading. I might even go out and buy myself a new juicy summer book for the occasion. I won't lie I am also looking forward to the best ice cream in the world, it's actually frozen custard and we had it last summer for the first time after driving by the stand for years and years and OMG it is the best. It will probably end up being our dinner because it's so gigantic-ly delicious.
I'm going to force myself to get back on track the next few days. I'm not going to say I'm doing it today or even maybe tomorrow because when I do that and then I can't get myself back on track the guilt makes it worse and then it takes me longer. I just need to slowly start making better choices and get my head on straight again. I know I can do it. I just need to find the motivation to do it.
Now for some positive staments/beliefs.
*I love the way my toes look in the sandals I'm wearing today, they are cute. The OPI color I am wearing is called "Strawberry Margarita".
*I think my eyes are my prettiest feature.
*Even though I am having a tough time eating, I know this slump/weight gain is just temporary...I WILL GET BACK ON TRACK SOON.
*I believe that Marc & I will have kids someday, somehow.
*I believe that I will be under 300lbs before my birthday, 9/3.
5 comments:
Good luck with eventually getting back on track. You sure are dealing with some pretty heavy stuff. No one can fault you for taking a breather!
I have no doubt you'll get back on track. Just keep treading water until you can. Sounds like a really fun weekend awaits you!
I know you guys will have kids someday, sweetie. *hugs* I say just focus on you and your weight loss and in the meantime, just have "fun" with you and Marc's bedroom time. :)
Even if you never have kids of your own, I think adoption would be an excellent option. You're GOING to be a great mom no matter what.
Have fun this weekend!
A. I will be looking for this Strawberry Margarita OPI for my next Pedi.
B. I'm glad you are feeling better. I worry about you and I'm to far away to check on you in person!
C. My new mantra is one step at a time. Don't get ahead of yourself. Just take each moment and make the best choice you can.
D. Hugs!
Glad you're doing better and if you want to just skip a week if that will help you feel better! I love strawberry margarita OPI color! I have it and wear it a lot!
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