S l o w l y . . . .

Slowly but surely I am getting my groove back with counting calories, which is what seems to work for me best over portion size.  I mean with calorie counting I get portion size but it's not the main focus....if you get what I mean.  I know I can do this but I'm resisting stepping on the scale until Sunday which will be my official weigh in days.  I don't want to mess up my groove right now.  If I see a loss then I might justify some bad choices, if I don't see a loss than I will feel hopeless and turn to my old friend emotional eating.

I also wanted to share a link to my new blog "Violet Imperfection".  It's a craft/mama/recipe/little bit of everything blog.  Hope to see you there!

Go Team USA!

Feeling Hopeless

I can't get out of my own way.  I just don't know how to get back into the groove again.  My brain tells me I can do it because I did so well last year but for some reason it also tells me that I need to eat way more than what a portion size is and that ice cream should be a daily treat.

On the positive side I have walked the last two days, woo hoo!  I guess that is one small step in the right direction.

As of today I'm exactly 50lbs heavier than I was at my lowest last summer.  Sigh.  The thing that bothers me the most is that before we moved I was down another 20lbs.  I feel like I put on those 20lbs like an idiot.  Grrr.

I'll get back to where I was....right?

What I Will Gain

I was watching TV the other night and caught the the Kellog's commercial about weighing women in Times Square.  The premise of the commercial is that instead of focusing on the weight you have to lose is focus on all the things you have to gain by having a healthy lifestyle.

I love this concept.  Of course I loosely have an idea of things I will gain by continuing to lose weight but I have never written down these things.  I think having a list to look at will be very beneficial to me when I'm having a rough time or need more motivation.

• A long healthy life.
• Feeling good about the way I look
• Confidence
• Setting a good example for my daughter
• Energy
• Accomplishing the goals I set for myself
• Being able to get down on the floor and play with Violet without becoming winded or wondering how I am going to get up from the floor.
• A second healthier pregnancy (...maybe!)
• Stamina
• Looking in the mirror and smiling

These are the things just off the top of my head.  I think I'm going to continue thinking about all the things I have to gain and printing out the list for my fridge to always remind me not to focus on what I'm losing but what I'm gaining.

What do you have to gain by losing?

Happy 4th of July!