The last few days have not been good, there has been no exercising and no counting of calories. I haven't gone completely crazy off the deep end with my eating but it hasn't been pretty either.
I ended up taking the day off of work on Friday, gotta love those personal days and I went to parents early which helped a little bit I guess. I'm just so upset about the scale but it has made me determined to do one thing.
The scale has been hidden. Yep. Marc hid it for me on Thursday night. I have no clue where my scale is and for the first time in almost two years, I don't give a crap. That thing has been controlling me since January. Well, for almost two years but since January it has been the worst. I have come to the conclusion that I don't want to be ruled by the number on the scale and that I want to weigh myself once a month at home and then at my appointments. That is it.
It's kinda freeing and scary at the same time. I'm going to have to reschedule my appointment this week as I am NOT ready to see my weight on Tuesday. I'm like a junkie, can't be around tempting things.
My stress has been out of control the last two weeks and I really need to get a handle on that. I need to start something that well help me handle it, like meditation or yoga. That is my goal for the week to try out a few different things to see if it helps alleviate some of my stress. I think that will help the stress/emotional eating.
I just feel all over the place the last week in regards to motivation and my feelings towards weight loss all together, it's been hard to get my head back in the game. The next thing for me to figure out is why I let myself slip out of the game so often. It's a very frustrating pattern for me. I stop logging my food, don't wear my bodybugg and make excuses for not exercising.The whole point of this rambling post is to let everything go and get my ass back in gear and that is just what I plan to do this week. I'm clearing my head and plugging forward.
5 comments:
The best weight loss weeks I've had are the ones where I can't find that damn scale. Good for you! See what happens this week. I bet it'll help not to have the numbers hindering your mental process. :)
Good luck on getting the focus away from the scale numbers! I know that I can only look once per week. It just messes with my head too much. Just take it one thing at a time to get you on track. Maybe start with taking a walk, or counting your calories, or getting your water in. Just one thing and that one thing will snowball into back on track in no time! We're here supporting you!
Leslie, you may slip up from time to time, we all do! But you always pick yourself back up! I know this time you will as well. I hope you can figure out your patterns and put a halt to the ones you want to stop. As always we are here!
I should have my husband hide the scale again, I have become scale obsessed lately and it's driving me batty!
I'm new to your blog and so I want to say congrats on your success so far!
But the funniest part of this post to me is the picture of the glass head from Pier 1! You see, I actually work for Pier 1 (I'm the web designer for pier1.com) and I love the glass head :) I have one at home that I use to keep my knitted hats on. Yay!!
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