Boring Blog Post

I’m having one of THOSE days.  Again.  I want to eat everything in sight and I want to eat something that is super high in calories and not feel guilty about it.  How do you treat yourself without falling off the wagon?  Thoughts?  I’d love to hear some strategies.  I just don’t know how to overcome that emotional eating thing, it’s so hard for me to let go of.  Most days I can banish the thoughts but days like today I just want to cry or eat a bag of chips.  Almost two years in to this journey and I still struggle with this, admittedly not as bad as it used to be but I still feel like when I least expect it the crushing feelings slam into me.  If I indulge than it takes me awhile to get back on track, it's a frustrating cycle.

I think contributing to this mood is the fact that this is usually the time of year I book a trip to Disney.  I am READY for a freaking vacation.  And yes, I know I had my vacation from work in May but honestly, I want a vacation away from home.  I would be completely happy if it was only for a night or two.  I’m not greedy.  I need something to look forward too so that everyday at work isn’t a pity party for one as I wish I was somewhere else which leads to emotional eating. 

Alas, I don’t see a vacation/getaway in the cards in the near future.  So I’ve decided for the next few weeks to focus on Marc & I’s 3^rd Wedding Anniversary on June 28^th.  I’m thinking we will celebrate the weekend before since a Tuesday night isn’t my idea of a fun night out. We’ve been talking about going to our favorite seafood place where I will indulge in my one outing of fried clams for the summer, I love those tasty little morsels but I’m limiting myself to ONE meal of them, or it’s a slippery slope my friends and I will be wanting to eat them every weekend.  The place we go to has the best dinner rolls too and I will be having one of those as well.  Afterwards, not sure what we are going to do.  We talked about going to the park where we got married and just walking around or maybe the movies.  I just want a nice romantic night out for just the two of us.   Last year we had to go to a wedding on our anniversary weekend and the year before that…well I had been in emotional hormonal hell dealing with trying to get pregnant and we had our first Surgical Weight Loss appointments the following week.  I don’t even remember if we went out to dinner or anything.  Pretty sad.  So I want this year to be an awesome year.  I already know what I’m going to buy him for his present; this is the first year we are exchanging presents! 

So that is my strategy in dealing with the looming summer with no vacations or trips to look forward too, for the time being at least.  Hmmm…maybe plan something to celebrate my 2 year band anniversary on August 26^th…!?

Exercise is going great.  I get up every morning before work and go out for a walk.  I’ve been using 2.5lbs hand weights to help me increase my workout load and I am starting to get muscles!  I have never had muscles, it’s a great feeling.  My new favorite thing to do is to flex my arms.  I’ve also been walking most days during my lunch.  I need to get back into the exercise groove on the weekends but I plan to tackle that this weekend.

I feel like this was the world’s most boring blog post EVER but whatever.  I guess I’m boring today!