Excellent Week.

I've had an excellent week, how about you?

I'm almost at my exercise goal, I'm 9 minutes away.  I would have kept walking this morning but I had a bathroom emergency and I had to skeedaddle home.  The only bad thing about drinking so much water is that you never know when the urge is going to strike you!  LOL.  I think I'm going to up my exercise goal to 500 minutes next week. 

My eating has been really good this week as well.  I decided to lower my calories from 1500 to 1450 yesterday and I was still about 50 under the 1450 so that makes me feel good.  I find allowing myself to eat whatever as long as it fits in my calories makes me think about food less.  Yesterday at work I totally forgot about my afternoon snack.  That is simply amazing, who would have thought I'd ever think about a snack opportunity!  Not worrying about carb content has really freed me to eat more variety of foods without the guilt and it makes me feel good to know that I can have this snack foods in the house and eat one portion or sometimes a 1/2 portion and just walk away and the food is haunting me from my pantry.  That is an awesome feeling for sure.  Very empowering.

All these things coming together has made a new low on my scale.  310.5lbs.  I am only 1.1lbs away from 100lbs lost.  I really really really hope that I reach that huge gigantic fantastic milestone tomorrow.  That would be awesome.

I did have a huge NSV for me last night.  Usually Friday nights we have take-out which usually leads to take-out on Saturday nights.  Well last night we were talking about tonight's dinner and Marc was listing off our usually take-out choices.  None of them were really doing it for me.  I thought about it and I said, "You know what?  I don't want take-out.  Let's make something."  Can you believe it!?!  I can't.  I've done so well this week though that I don't want anything to get in my way of 100lbs lost.

With everything going so well weight loss and exercise wise I have been pretty low stress this week which has been nice.  BUT for some reason this morning I am just a ball of aniexty and stress.  I think it has to do with our finances.  The last two months have been tough with me missing a few days to the pneumonia which were unpaid due to lack of sick time and then my vacation at the beginning of the month, I'm only going to be paid for one week next week.  Last year my old boss made a mistake with vacation time and let me borrow too much so if I want to come out evenly this year I had to take the two weeks unpaid and due to banking regulations in my state I am obligated to take two weeks in a row once a year.  Sigh.  So add that to Marc switching jobs and paying more in gas money each week for his longer commute, losing Marc's part-time income and all this other stuff, our wallet is hurting.  I just keep telling myself that we are going to be late on a few things but nothing major, we will catch up.  I have been repeating that to myself over and over again this morning but it is just not helping.  We don't use credit cards since we are slowly paying back all of our credit card debt from a few years ago but this one time where I just wish we had one so I could put our gas and groceries on it and just catch up with out monthly bills.  It just causes me a lot of anxiety but I want it to go away because that can lead to bad things in regards to my eating and exercising.  I know it will get better, just a few more weeks and all of this financial anxiety will go away.  I'm hoping typing this all out and lettting it go will help me calm down for the rest of the day.

Thanks for listening to my money woes and I want to thank you ALL for all of your supportive comments over the last few weeks, they really keep me going.  Thank you!