C is for Changes

So I'm still not in a great place mentally.  To be quite honest, I am mentally exhausted.  I am so sick of thinking, worrying and problem solving that my brain is going on strike. 

Donna Martin Graduates!

Donna Martin Graduates!

Whoops, wrong type of strike.

I haven't been eating awful like I did pre-band but I'm not eating all that great either.  I'm in that vicious cycle of eating bad, beating myself up and then eating bad to cope with feeling like an awful human being.  I need to cut the crap and get back to basics. 

But like any true procrastinator, I'm waiting until this week is over.  I just need to get through this week at work.  I don't know if any of you have ever switched positions within the same company but it's awkward.  I don't like it.  It's so weird to talk about your new position while you are still sitting at your old desk, talking about how excited you are about the new job to the people you are leaving.  Again, I don't like it.

Thank you for all of your sweet advice from my blog yesterday.  It brought tears to my eyes, which just goes to show what an emotional mess I am this week.  I am very much a creature of habit and routine and it's been all thrown off with the job changes, schedule changes and just CHANGES.

I'm going to get my butt in gear this weekend.  I am promising MYSELF that I will go to they gym at least one day this weekend and I will map out what days I'm going next week.  I think with my new job starting on Monday it is a perfect time to get myself into a new routine of gym, cooking meals and all that fun stuff. 

I can do this.

I will do this.

I just need a few more days to breathe and regroup. 

I'm going to allow myself these next few days and not feel guilty.

Ready.

Set.

RELAX.