Thursday, June 28, 2012

Remember Me?

Hi!  Remember me?  I am the lost blogger known as Leslie.

I have no excuses except I have been busy with Violet, moving and just adjusting to being a stay at home Mama.  Oh and I haven't been focused on weight loss one bit.

This isn't going to be one of those great big declaration posts on how I am ashamed of how I have done or how I am jumping back on the band wagon.  That doesn't work for me, been there done that.  I have had to focus on other things and that is just how life is sometimes.   I need to remember that this is a lifestyle and not a diet.  I'm getting there.

So here is the plan.  I'm going to commit to blogging at least once a week, that should get the ball rolling again.  I'm starting to feel bad again physically.  My stamina is gone and I want it back.  I know I can do this, I have done it before.  So you will be seeing more of me...that is if you are still following along.

For now, here is your Violet fix.  Aww, I just love this little girl so very much!





Saturday, April 14, 2012

This and That

My eating has been pretty decent this week, I did have a touch of the flu so I had almost two days of no food so I am sure I will see a loss this week but we will see if it sticks around.

I went out for my first walk since breaking my foot and I didn't go very far and my foot was absolutely killing me by the time I got home.  I'm really depressed that my foot is still an issue.  I'm going back to physical therapy later this month but my orthopedic doctor has told me my foot will never been the same again.  So depressing as last summer I was walking about 3 miles in the mornings before work and I really enjoyed it.  I love walking and I miss it a lot.  I'm worried I'm going to have to find a lower impact exercise because of my foot.

I wanted to do the color run that is coming to my area on July 28th but I honestly don't think I can do it with my foot right now. It really makes me sad.

In other news I made a huge life change this week, I gave my notice at work so I'm officially a stay at home mom.  I'm thrilled with this new change. I know I will have more time to eat healthy and cook meals for my family as well as stay home with Violet.    Things will be tight financially but Marc and I are happy with our choice and are committed to making it work out.

And finally because I'm a proud Momma here are some of the pictures we too of Violet when she was about 10 days old.  We had a little photo shoot and I think they turned out pretty darn good.  Much better than dropping $800 on newborn photos by a professional!



These earrings are my grandmothers, she passed away when I was 13. 
I wore them on my wedding day and Violet's middle name is after her.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

I stepped on the scale....

First up, Violet's weekly picture.


I am feeling a lot better from last week.  I honestly think the pain I was having was muscle related.  It's gone away completely and my band seems to be cooperating a bit more. 

I was brave on Tuesday morning and stepped on the scale at home.  I weighed in at 350lbs even.  I will take it  The lowest I have ever reached since my band surgery was in May of last year and that was 309.4lbs.  On July 11th at the ob/gyn's office for a consult on becoming pregnant I think I weighed 318.  So I was up before I got pregnant.  The highest I was on that scale the day before Violet was born was 377lbs.  Not perfect but being up only 40.5lbs right now since having a baby and breaking my foot, well I will take it.

I think it's time to talk goals.  My 30th birthday is September 3rd and I want to be under 300lbs.  It is my present to myself. I know I can do it if I get serious.  I went for my first walk since breaking my foot yesterday and I know I have a lot of work before I'm back to walking 3 plus miles a day like I was doing last summer.  Sigh.  It depresses me that my foot is going to be a major obstacle but I'm going back to physical therapy later this month so hopefully that will help.

Here is my "re-starting" before picture.

I want lots of pictures of me with my sweet baby girl so I need to get the weight off and become comfortable in front of the camera again.


Friday, April 6, 2012

Band Issues

Since Violet was born, I have been having a few issues with my band.  I ended up having an emergency c-section due to the fact that my blood pressure was going too high and the induction was getting me far enough along to deliver naturally.  Well the first few days after the c-section I was very restricted, my band was closed for business.  It took me a super long time to eat and then the morning after my c-section when my nurse pushed the uber gigantic prenatal vitamin on me which I then proceeded to throw up while trying to hold Violet.  I shouldn't have taken the vitamin but I was still in a haze due to the magnesium they had me on to prevent seizures.  Magnesium = feels like you have been hit by a Mack truck.  (Side note, Violet's pediatrician who I had never met before her first appointment had heard about me from the hospital, I am known as the "Magnesium Mom", that is how awful that crap is).

Anyhoo, throwing up a prenatal vitamin 12 hours after a c-section equals NO FUN AT ALL.  Holy hurt, batman.  Anyways, after that I was very cautious when eating and my midwife was kind enough to prescribe my medications in liquid form.  I was in the hospital for 6 days, when I got home I had zero appetite.  I just had no interest in food for about a week.  

Fast forward to this week and I'm having some pain in the area where I imagine my band is.  It is not my port area but it band-ish area, at least in my mind.  Yesterday I was concerned enough to call the surgical weight loss clinic and make an appointment.  They were able to see me yesterday.  So my nutritionist left last summer and then my surgeon left shortly after that.  They have another hospital filling in to cover the clinic.

Let's just say I have never been so outraged at the medical profession.

Here are some choice phrases from my meeting with the covering surgeon...

"You haven't been very successful with the band"

"I see you have gained weight over the last few months, what has been going on?" (Mind you, Violet is right next to me in her car seat, DUH!)

"What have you been eating while pregnant?"  I answer that it's easy to eat around the band, ice cream goes down real smooth and he proceeds to say, "I don't understand why people do that to themselves."

Those are just the tips of the iceberg really.  I have never felt this way about our clinic, they are usually so supportive and helpful.  I have been successful with the band!  I'm up only 17lbs from my last appointment in August, I think that's pretty damn impressive as I just had a baby THREE weeks ago.

So basically the surgeon wants me to go for an Upper GI to see if my pouch is dilated.  He seems to think I've been eating so much (not the case if he'd listen to me) that my pouch has expanded.  He didn't over any fill being removed or anything.  Oh and I need to do two weeks of food journals to see the amount of calories I'm taking in, he insinuated that I could be consuming as much as 5,000 calories a day.

He treated me like I'm a freaking idiot, I'm 2 1/2 years post op.  I KNOW how this works.  Yes I've had bumps in the road but I count myself a success, I weigh less than I did when I started.

The more I think about the pain I am in, the more I think it's a muscle based pain.  It reminds me of when I had my port relocation in 2010 and went back to the gym too soon.  I just had to take it easy for a few weeks and it went away.  I think that is what it is, seeing as I'm keeping food and water down and the pain is only at night after I've been running around all day.  I'm doing a lot more than I have in months due to my broken foot and bed rest.

For now I think I'm going to skip the Upper GI and see what happens.  Of course if it gets worse I will go for it.  I don't even know if our new insurance covers anything band related so I have to check that out too.  I also think I'm going to follow my old surgeon to his new hospital.  I don't like this new guy, he's a jerk.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

My Little Bunny


I promise my blog won't always be all about Violet but I can't resist posting this photo!

Thursday, March 29, 2012

A Year of Violet

Everyone knows I'm addicted to Pinterest and I found this idea on there when I was killing time on bed rest.  The basic thing is taking weekly pictures of your baby through the first year.  I'm going to use different fabrics for backgrounds and at the end of the year make her quilt with all the different ones we use.  

Here are the first three photos.



I can't believe how much she has changed in just two short weeks!